RIP- my helmet

today i am a broken man. my helmet was completely destroyed today when it was run over. its not the price of the helmet that kills me, $300, but it's the thought of knowing it could have been prevented. i forgot to place the helmet in my car after going out for a ride today in longbeach. i left it on top of my truck and took off. as i made my way trough downtown i felt something strange, i felt incomplete. when i realized it it was already too late. as i busted a U by the court house and start hauling ass down ocean to where i had parked by the art museum, i kept getting stuck behind people doing the speed limit. but no matter how fast i was going, 70mph, that just wasn't fast enough to save my precious helmet. when i finally found my helmet across the street from where i parked. i ran across four lanes of traffic, narrowly being hit myself, to retrieve what i could see was my life-less helmet. when i held my limp dead helmet in my arms a little part of me died inside. now i feel lost, i dont know where to go from here. i wish it would have been me and not the helmet that had been run over. its not like i can just go to a bike shop and replace that specific helmet. now im going to have to europe in order to find my helmet just because it unavailable for purchase in the USA.

color correcting

god why does it have to be so difficult?

it's been a while

haven't posted in a while. i've been searching and shooting urinals for a typology series.

i need an idea

i was thinking of using a barrel of monkeys for my project. not really sure how thats gonna turn out.

i need direction

i feel lost. i need something or someone to guide me. and no it's not a need for religion

just a few more hours

trying to complete my artist statement for my BFA submission. but i must also get sleep.

no more fun and games

i wish i could have been more productive the first half of the semester in digital, but i hit some mental road block. this tends to happen to me every few years. i remember a friend of mine once send, "when you can no longer continue working on a piece you just need to step away form it and come back to it some other time." i feel like i've stepped away for to long and i now have nothing to return to or remember what it is i stepped away from in the first place. i think i should count my loses and focus for the second half of class and put in my best effort. i need to gain that competative edge i used to have when it came to producing work. fun time is over.

3 days till the rapture

soon the dead line shall be approaching for portfolio submission.

i need to read more fiction

i feel like i just a wall. i dont know what to do next. or what it is im doing already. i need to find some sort of inspiration. i need to find some good creative literature.

windy day

today i went on a ride in the morning in an attempt to avoid strong winds. as i was riding i noticed my shadow and how it changed shape every time i passed different objects at different distances. at one moment it would be an elongated shadow with soft edges then it would exactly my size. i really cant explain i that well. but long story short it gave me an idea for some sort of film. i just wish i had some way of recording it with out bringing harm to myself or the equipment.

one more thing

i almosy forgot i came across this little post about an exhibtion in brazil that reminded me of a piece i saw done on a building in san fran last november. ill try to post an image of the building that had the artwork on it when i find it. click here

gregory crewdson

looking at a lot of crewdson work right now. its amazing to think that he is so celebrated but yet doesnt even take the photographs himself. he has one of his assistants do it for him. if you dont know who gregory crewdson i would recommend checking him out.

its been a while

i just realized i think i might have left my drive at the lab. i always forget that little piece of shit there. ill look for it tomorrow when i go the studio

!!!

i need a new camera preferably a point and shoot that shoots raw. its not that my 50d is not doing the job its that i need something i could put in my pocket.
remember a great ninja only needs a small dagger.

daniel gordon

just watched this video it was very inspiring. it seems there still hope for me.

click here

90's

i dont know why but this inspires me to do something productive with my life. and go out for food

feel like giving up

i just dont feel like doing anything anymore.

back to the grinding stone

i need to continue working on the project for digital. no more breaks.

joker likes bacon

after talking about Francis Bacon in 499 i remembered that in Tim Burton's Batman there's a scene with a Bacon painting in it.

FAIL

26.2 miles in 3:30:14
overall 4,110 out of 45,000
major fail

at least the weather was fine in 20's-30's range

forecast for my marathon

Growing season ends as early morning lows drop below freezing across the area except along the lakeshore. Early morning lows range from mid 20s well inland to the lower/mid 30s along the lakeshore with the record low (27 degrees in 1996 ) in jeopardy. Mid-November level afternoon highs in the middle and upper 40s with W/NW winds 10-18 mph. Morning sun gives way to some afternoon cloudiness. Clouds increase overnight keeping lows in the middle and upper 30s.

you gotta love this chicago weather

its raining!!!

im in chicago day two and it's still raining. hope its not raining too hard at night so i could pursue my artistic ideas

manny's awesome day

well to start things off class was canceled today. didnt get the email in time so i had to kill about six hours for the next class to start. so i rode my bike for about 20 miles before i came back to school. went to two different best buys to try to convince myself of purchasing a G10. i eventually returned to school empty handed, but with 3 cheese burgers and 2 fries in my tummy (godbless in-n-out). so attempting to kill another two hours i was screwing around with images on my hard-drive maybe to find some inspiration somewhere. and with 5 minutes to the next class i come to find out it's a work day. (fuck me!) so in another words i could have packed my bags for chicago insted of spending the day in long beach. but the good news was that i went to best buy again at night to buy the G10. the bad news was that when i got dropped off at school to pick up my bike i opened to the camera box to find out it's missing the battery charger. (fuck me and the rest the rest of society that is against me and my happiness). so now i have to go to best buy again tomorrow and bitch and complain.

no work for a couple weeks

just got off of work for the week. i won't be going back to work for a couple of weeks going to chicago. hear the weather is how i likes it, cold. would have liked going to one of those free galleries this week end but work took most of my free time. on my way to go visit grandma at the hospital, hope she gets better before i fly out to chi-town.

project one description

I am going to attempt to illustrate inspiration, or at least what inspires me. Because inspiration comes to many in different forms it will be an evolving project. I think I will attempt to do some sort of collage and maybe even some compositing. The main inspiration for my work will come from my bike rides that I take everyday. While attempting to execute my ideas I will try to refine the skills that I once had in photoshop basics. Its been a few years since I used photoshop this much. So I need to remember how to manipulate images with out making it so noticeable. When it comes to the presentation I have yet to determine if it will be one continual piece or if it will be several pieces. The size and shape will be determined by what it is that is depicted in every idea that comes to mind. I will look at artist such as LaChapelle, Templeton, and Juxtapoz for some sort of inspiration. Who knows I might read that Lance autobiography, only if I can keep up with the readings for my seminar. I feel that I really couldn’t grade this work but only feel whether or not it is complete. My main goal is to better learn the program I am using and to learn more about my makes me tick and how I can show others what it is I see on a daily basis.

Inspiration

Inspiration refers to an unconscious burst of creativity in an artistic, musical, or other intellectual endeavor such as the invention of a new scientific theory.

so say'th wiki.

why is it that some people are so easily inspired and then there are those who struggle for years before they reach an epiphany?

genesis

i need to begin my project already. i have some thoughts as to what it is i want to pursue. i need to find some sort of inspiration for my creation. i tend to bike alot of places so i need to find some inspiration and get my shit together.

bergamont

bought a set zipp 303's wheels on friday. then i went to bergamont station to check out the milton exhibit. i found that his prints where beautifully printed. when i looked at some of the other open galleries i came across one that had warhol portraits.i really liked how did the pete rose print i just found it comically amusing.

damn photoshop

why is it that when i hook up my external hard-drive and try to use the files on it in photoshop it drains my mac's internal memory. took me ten minutes to open a goddamn file and when i took the same file to toone of the school's mac's it did it in two mins.

morro bay show

went to check out the morro bay show and the galleries today. i found some of the work interesting and and some of it disappointing. not trying to say my work was any better then anyone else's but i felt some people could have put in a couple extra hours into their work. was hoping to see more people at the galleries to. maybe the emmy's were more important to those who couldn't make it. for those who went and are curious about what my work was, it was the dead animals i found at the beach.

Morro Bay Show

opening reception for the MORRO BAY camping trip 9-20-09. at Werby Gallery at CSULB. 5-8PM

Bruce Mau's Incomplete Manifesto for Growth

8. Drift
"Allow yourself to wander aimlessly. Explore adjacencies. Lack judgment. Postpone criticism."
Feel like I've done this most of my life.